It's monday already?

Well, the week is starting over....mine actually began yesterday when the hubster went back to work, boo. I'm on my second week of p90x, my third week of my newest bible study and the hubby and I have started some devotions recently! We are going back to our small group this week and my best friend here is finally coming out of her sick coma so we can resume our SAHM coffee mornings! YAY!!! I also recently discovered that I get K-Love up here in the boonies. I never used to be able to get it and miraculously in the last week or so its been coming in. It couldn't have come at a better time really. The last six months have been really crazy. A lot of bad things have happened, I lost a lot of friendships and a few other things. I tend to dwell on the bad things and lose track of the good things. In this particular situation I really believe that a lot of it was out of my control. I've really been working on accepting responsibility for what I did contribute to the situation, but working past the unknown has really been a struggle for me. Some of the friendships...well frankly I'm not sure why they faded really. I thought they were strong, and maybe they weren't a maybe they were and then weren't....I don't really know. But I've been dwelling on this a lot....letting go without knowing what really happened. And short of calling them up and being like, "So what's the deal, I wanna know what's up," there's not too much else I can do.....So back to K-Love. As I've been dwelling on all these things, I swear that every time I turn the key the song, "You've been Remade," by Tenth Avenue North comes on. If you haven't heard the song here are the lyrics. They've really been speaking to me and I hope they do to you as well:


There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she's rehearsed all the lines
And so she'll try to do better
But then she's too weak to try

But don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,

You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.